It’s like everytime I come back here, I take in consideration the idea of moving back home. To the place I grew up every summer. To the place where I was born. To the place where the majority of my family lives. To the place where my first home was. I love New York. The weird weather. The lifestyle. The not so smiley people. But I love California. It’s my first home, & I always feel a bit more happy than I usually am when I’m here. I’m happy as it is when I’m in New York. But I feel a little bit more complete when I come back to see my family in California.
I feel like I’m just rambling. I never really post my personal thoughts here. My laptop broke, too, so I’m typing this shit from my phone. It’s 1:05am PST. I am so jetlagged.
For the past month, it didn’t hit me that I’m going to be gone for six weeks to be in the state where I was born. Last year, three weeks wasn’t enough time to reconnect with my family after not visiting in four years. I’m sick to my stomach as of just a few hours ago when it really hit me. I’m excited yet upset to be going back. Possibly going to Santa Cruz. Possibly going to Disneyland and/or Great America. Possibly going to LB. The important thing is that I’m going to see my family. But this is going to be the longest time I’ve ever spent away from both my mom & my boyfriend.
California, here I come.
- black people: black
- white people: 2% Greek, 9.1% German, .0000032% Russian, 92% Irish, 49% French
- hispanic people: not Mexican
- asian people: not Chinese
jaydemm:
Its hard to find anyone to rely on now. I feel like i always have to run on other peoples times. Then when i try to do everything in my own time everyone bitches, but then i get shit done on my own. Just tired of it. Oh i ask you to kick it? You’re busy okay. So you ask me to kick it? And i move plans around just to kick it with you. SMH i’m tired of moving around my plans for other people. Now i’m stuck going to the museum by myself tomorrow. Gotta work on that paper all day. Plus always planning on going to the gym with other people then they flake and i end up being lazy and not going. I gained weight cause i haven’t been to the gym and now i’m laggin on my school shit because i move around plans for other people. Really tho, fuck that. It was better off when i did shit myself. Handled my plans and shit myself. THEN if im free i’ll make time for you. But if i have shit to do and you ask me to do something, fuck that. Wait til i’m free.
Handling my own grind. Fuck the rest.
Situation & mentality on point for me, too.
Anonymous asked: how are you and ashley?
College got to both of us this past semester. Making time to talk was an issue bc either one of us was busy at the time, so we actually grew apart. But it’s not like we’re on bad terms.
Anonymous asked: i never liked those girls you used to be friends with.
That’s your opinion, gray face. Idc which ones you’re talking about either lol. Just because I’m not friends with people that I used to be mad chill with doesn’t mean I’ll belittle each of them as a person.
Anonymous asked: whatever happened to you and jeff?
It’s not like anything bad happened; we just grew apart. Once in a blue moon, we’ll say hi to each other. No matter what, though, he’s one of the few that have my utmost respect bc he (& I) never crossed the line that would jeopardize our friendship. He was always a great best friend who was there when I needed one. I only wish him the best. (:
Anonymous asked: do you ever miss being single?
Better yet, do I even remember what it feels like to be single? Not really.
My current boyfriend & I’ve been dating since almost the middle of our hs junior year. I was in a relationship all of my freshman year, which makes my sophomore year as my “single year” since I was only in a 2-month relationship that year, which wasn’t serious. I didn’t make the most of my single life back then, but I was never the type to bitch & whine about wanting to be in a relationship when I was single.
- 1st month of school: look nice & dress nice.
- The rest of the school year: rocking the homeless grandma look.
Halfway there #motivated #dedication #health (Taken with instagram)
Anonymous asked: what's your opinion on long distance relationships?
If you & your bf/gf are mature enough to handle it, then go for it. Some work out, some don’t.
